At first it did not look like anything out of the ordinary, a long horizontal line with significant historical events marked at intervals. And then the timeline came to life, spiraling around and down, so that comparable events and challenges lined up. Oddly, my own timeline appeared, shadowing history’s events on the spiral.
What was a linear line marking separate occurrences, became one with my experiences in the here and now. Dots popped up, representing places where I had taken up residence, sure that I had found home. As I sat with the image, I could see how Wholeness had continually called me down deeper into Love’s river.
I longed to be in Spirit’s flow and since the only way down was through, I began living with the spiraling events until I could see how history’s stories were pertinent to my own. I looked at world events at the time my grandfather was a boy and wondered what it would have been like to be orphaned at such a young age. Immediately, I recalled the first time I felt orphaned by someone I had trusted.
My personal tug-of-wars between developing ego and authentic self shadowed civil wars in history. Interestingly, as I allowed the process, the once two opposing forces, became one within Soul, growing me into wholeness.
I considered the lives of martyrs and felt resurgent energy over injustices I had voiced, only to find myself dying yet another small death. And then I could see how in letting what needed to die, actually expire; I allowed the story to continue unfolding in fresh ways.
I found kinship with explorers and artists, as I walked into foreign lands, creating new paths on the journey. I remembered how magical it felt to watch the myriad of possibilities parade before me.
Looking at my life within the whole of time became Soul’s way of taking care of me, redeeming my less favorable experiences one after another, until I could find the gift that each one held. As I welcomed the entirety, Grace that I had reached for, showed herself within.
In spite of having fewer answers than when I first began, I wanted to companion others around and down, through life experiences, to Spirit’s flow. Ah, the gift of life!